Sometimes A Girl Just Needs Her Big Sister

It's almost been 3 years and Bekah still hasn't come back. As time has gone by, things have gotten a little easier and God has blessed me with an amazing husband who is so supportive, encouraging, and who truly is my best friend. But sometimes, a girl just needs her big sister. I needed the best friend in my big sister yesterday!

Since Bekah passed away, I've found myself getting envious of my friends who have sisters. When I see them writing each other on Facebook or hanging out together, it brings back memories and it makes me a little jealous. I think, "I want that back!" It hurts me to see sisters arguing or fighting with each other too. It makes me want to shake them and say, "REALIZE!! You still have them here! Treasure them!" If I wanted to be a looney, perhaps I could do that but God has taught me so much through Bekah being home in Heaven and moments like that make me appreciate the sweet relationship I had with her.

When I was younger, I could never have imagined that Rebekah and I would have been such good friends. I'm glad I was wrong! I remember spending an entire summer with her after a bad break up. She just let me come and stay with her, eat her food, sleep in her bed every night with her even though she had a guest room, and let me do pretty much whatever I wanted. We had the best time together that summer! She was such an incredible giver and never asked for anything in return! I miss the times when I could just call her on the phone and talk about nothing. I'm saddened when I have that urge and can't do it. I had a moment like that yesterday.

While talking to Jeremy, Tabitha called him and we got off the phone. I thought to myself, "I want to call my sister." Of course, I couldn't but I still wanted to talk to a sibling so I called JR, my brother. He was unaware that I was getting sad and I wasn't going to tell him. There are funny differences between JR and I because he's not much of a talker, especially on the phone, and I am to an extent. So when I called, the conversation was short but I was glad I got to talk to him for a minute. He wouldn't know it unless he reads this but sometimes I call just to call because I need him. Sometimes I call because I'm missing my Bekah and sometimes just because I want what me and Bekah had with my big brother. I've been blessed with an incredible family that's full of love! I have such a great sister-in-law in Tabitha, who sometimes reminds me of Bekah with her sweet and caring spirit. God brought Home a treasure in Bekah but He's shown so many more treasures in people around me.

As much as I miss her and as much as I just need my big sister sometimes, I'm glad God knows better than I do. I'm thankful that He's placed people in my life who can uplift and encourage me when I'm feeling down and sad. I do miss Bekah A TON, more than can be said or written, but I'm confident that she's Home and that she's so happy for me and for the family she loved so, so much!

Mia Update and Jeremy's Doggie Mansion

Mia has definitely grown! She's just about caught up with Molly, only a few inches left, and next up will be Mosa. She's about 15 weeks old this week and is already about 25lbs, we're estimating. She loves to snuggle and has taken a couple of trips upstairs to spend time with her Mama and Daddy. One night we decided to take a couple of pictures to show how big she's gotten.
A few weekends ago, Jeremy decided that he wanted to build a doggie mansion for the dogs to stay in when it's hot or cold. I was/am highly impressed with the work he did! The dogs love their new house, especially all the hay inside!! Jeremy also made a food/drink trough, which is just as impressive. I'm so proud of him!

You can tell she's already getting so big! Her paws are as big as the palm of my hand.

Doggie Mansion!!

Food/Drink trough. The 5 gallon bucket goes in the circle but preggo couldn't pick up that heavy bucket!

My Valentine's

Jeremy and I had a great Valentine's weekend!! On Thursday, Jeremy surprised me with a new Blackberry flip phone--my 1st Valentine's present. He got one for both of us so we have matching phones now. We both agree that they're the best phones we've ever had! Then today we went to Babies R Us and got our other Valentine's present....the carseat/stroller travel system for baby Will. We brought it home and guess who put it together?? ----ME! I was pretty proud of myself! Most of it was already assembled but there were a few parts to figure out and I'm proud to say that I figured it out all by myself! I'm SUPER excited about it and am officially ready to have our little man in it! We took the dogs for a walk this afternoon and I told Jeremy that I want to use the stroller now that we have it. He suggested putting Mia in it but uhh...I don't think so.

(P.S. The carseat that JR got for us is going into Jeremy's car or his mom's!)

In 13 weeks, we'll have a little baby sitting in there!

Belly at 25 weeks

He's getting biiiigg!!!! 25 weeks down, 15 to go!! He should now be about 13 1/2 inches long and weigh 1.5lbs!

New Nursery Pics

A couple of weekends ago, Jeremy and I worked on the nursery and have finally gotten it to the point where all is settled as much as it can be for now. Jeremy finished sanding the dresser, we got it painted, and up into the nursery. We also picked out a color to go on the wall above the dresser for the peel-off phrase that Jeremy's sister, Tabitha, gave us. Here are a few pictures...

This is the blue color we picked out. The phrase says, "I see the moon and the moon sees me. God bless the moon and God bless me." It will be right above the dresser.

All of his clothes are organized and in their place. The closet is deeper to the sides and the left side is full of diapers.

The bassinet is staying in the corner for now. It will be in our room once the baby is here.

And....TA DA!! The newly painted $20 Goodwill dresser!! Jeremy took the handles off to polish them so that is all that is missing. This will double as a dresser and changing table.